Tuesday, October 30, 2007


They finally got one thing right by letting this young man out of prison. The fact that he had to go to jail in the first place is ridiculous. It is a throwback of the christian right (who, incidently, runs the South in the United States right now), that wants to legislate morality in all points in your life. These ppl's ancestors were slave owners, adulterers, fornicator etc., in their wn right. It is time for the government to get out of my home, your home, out of our lives. This government has become incredibly intrusive on all points of life. We need a systemic change in the United States.



Friday, October 26, 2007


Prosecutors in the US have gotten out of control. This young man, Genarlow Wilson was 17 when he got a b.j. from a 15 y/o girl. She said it was consensual. Prosecutors didn't care, they went after this young man like bears. This is happening in Georgia. The outdated law was changed, Wilson wan an appeal when a higher court overturned his conviction, and the prosecutors appealed it. The case went to the state sup. crt, and he is being released. The Court ordered them to release him.
The problem is with the prosecutors. Overzealous, agenda driven prosecutors. I want to go after people like that. People like Mike Nifong the piece of shit loser from North Carolina. We have a pile of trash like that here in Multnomah County, Oregon. His name is Michael Schrunk, and according to his website has been the D.A. since 1981.
That is entirely too much time to spend in that position. As one Georgia lawmaker put it so well, "Sometimes we need to protect kids from District Attorneys." This is in reference to a proposed law putting some limitations on D.A's
I really want to make a difference and shut DA's sown that prove themselves to be overzealous. These people ruin others lives and fuck with ppl over the very same things they do. It is time for systemic change in this country it has gotten so damn corrupt.
Fortunately DA's are elected. unfortunately when you have ppl in office for 26 years they have an opportunity to build massive bank accounts, set up tons of perks, and generally become corrupt, self-serving and they begin to believe they are entitled to their position.I say fuck em all, throw all da bums out...

Wednesday, October 24, 2007


So I'm finally going to take my ACT test and formally enroll in the University. I've been going for the last couple of terms, but I've never taken the ACT, and I'm not formally enrolled, so I can't get financial aid. Another issue in the richest country on the fucking planet. 12 million dollars an hour in Iraq and we have people living on the streets.

I remember a class I had when I was a kid, it must have bee in like 6th or 7th grade, I would have been 11 or so, and we were watching propaganda films from the Soviet Union that were against the US. The scene that stands out is a homeless dude sleeping on a bench and it was supposedly shot in middle America, Kansas or some shit, and the point the Soviets were trying to make was under capitalism you have people even in the heart of the country living in the streets with no place to go...and, the point they were making was their system is better. So to the point. My teacher, after showing us the film, gleefully pointed out that the scene couldn't have been shot in Kansas 'cause you can see the capitol building, ( in D.C.) in the background!!! We all got a good laugh about that. The point of all that is this: BY THIS TIME WE HAD FORGOTTEN ALL ABOUT THE HOMELESS DUDE, IT TURNED INTO A BIG JOKE OVER HOW STUPID THE SOVIETS WERE.

This, my friends, is a large part of the problem...thank God, (or Apple) for our ipods so we don;t have to face these issues...like my professor Ridwan Laher said..."We gonna go to Starbucks and have a revolution over a latte" dude nailed it. Thank God for Starbucks and their pseudo-intellectualism, as well as their fake art on the walls...what a fucking joke.


I've been reading Randall Robinson's The Debt: What America Owes To Blacks. It's very good and it provides insight to someone raised in a white family in white America that he would otherwise not have. Race is such a massive issue in this country, but whites in general want to sweep history under the rug.

I say-Get this shit out in the open!! Slavery must be recognized by our government. The rape of Africa by Europeans and their descendants must be acknowledged. The rape and pillage of the Native on this continent must be acknowledged as well.

I am formulating a proposal that I believe is reasonable that will begin to address these issues. To be posted soon...

I am thinking of a quote by Chris Rock I think, it was during a stand up routine and he was discussing race in the US and he led up to one question: When was the last time you saw a Native family eating at Denny's? The native has been systematically destroyed by the government of the United States. Genocide. By this government.

It must be acknowledged. It has to be addressed...

I read a quote in Robinson's book:

"Africa is having to pay a huge price once more for the historical accident that this vast and compact continent brought fabulous profits to western capitalism, first out of the trade in its people and then out of imperialist exploitation. This enrichment of one side of the world out of the exploitation of the other has left the African economy without the means to industrialise." -Kwame Nkrumah, Neo Colonialism: The Last Stage of Imperialism

The west has stripped Africa of it's riches. Then the west stripped the peoples of Africa of their history, language, arts...an appalling statement I read in my text for my Black Studies course is one that spoke of the African not having a past, there is a term for it, but essentially states that African came here with a blank slate.

What? You think for one minute that if an individual is uprooted from their home that wipes out their memory of their home, homeland, language, culture, etc? How deep does white arrogance run?

You can see it in this country. The arrogance of the United States is a direct result of the arrogance of whites...

Sunday, October 14, 2007



Have you heard the term? Unitary Executive Powers. I've just come across it, which shows how much I get my news from the mainstream media. It is an interpretation by the Executive Branch of the US Govt that gives the president, in this case GW Bush, vastly larger powers than perhaps was intended by the framers of the Constitution. As I read earlier some in the Bush Administration believe the President has control over the military as he would have control over a veto or pardon and is not subject to reviewability [by an outside entity, such as congress].

I watched a couple of clips from the last Republican debate, and Mitt Romney actually went so far as to say he would consult his attorneys regarding the validity of going to war w/a specific country. Ron Paul freaked out and told him he was nuts, "all you have to do is open the Constitution and read you can't go to war without Congress' approval you ignorant jackass...'Paraphrased.

Tha point is, we have a bunch of dipshits running for office. We have a president that thinks the Executive Branch is not a branch of the government, but he believes he IS the executive branch.

Bush isn't the first. According to Wikipedia, in 1831 Andrew Jackson "refused to recognize a decision by the United States Supreme Court That exempted the Cherokee Nation from Georgia state law an recognized they had a right to self-government. The Judicial Branch was powerless to force Jackson to enforce their opinion." Much to the Cherokee Nations detriment. And, this set a precedent whereby other Native Tribes could be abused by the Executive Branch.


Saturday, October 13, 2007


Regarding the brain pic, the blue part is the part that I soaked-no marinated-for the past five years in whiskey. I am so thankful for Kelli standing with me, and her determination regarding her studies...read on, friend...

I've medicated my brain for so long with alcohol that it rather hurts using it since I've put the whiskey bottle down. I want to become more of a thinker, a contemplator. Kelli tells me frequently that I am intelligent...she is a great woman...smart and determined. She thinks of linear mathematics as a language. I fumble around with my change...I'm bright on some things, but math has not always been my strongest...although thinking about that, I realize that that is a result of years of listening to that crap from the people that raised me...I heard nonsense that ranged from "you suck at math" to "you're going to get emphysema when you get old..." neither of which is true.

I will say that I am considerably more interested in social issues and injustice than I am researching or doing mathematical problems...I seriously think dialog is needed to address the very real problems our country faces as a result of privatization and the erosion of civil rights, as well as the growing hostility by the Government toward the People.
How the hell do I put pictures in places on this blog other than at the top???

"CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT THE F*CK WE ARE STILL DOIN IN IRAQ?" Katt Williams, "The Pimp Chronicles Vol. 1"

Katt said it all...in 2006. now the price tag is 12 million dollars an hour.
When Kell's mom died, she was denied access to her momma's funeral by her brother Samuel, the same piece of shit that broke into our home and tried to kill me on August 26, 2000. Well, we're on our way back from Arkansas, and we stopped at a motel on Ogden, Utah. We had a bit of whiskey, and we scraped our pipe, let me tell you, we needed a good buzz after the hell we had gone thru. We ended up putting 4,000+ miles on the car in 6 days between Northwest Arkansas and Portland. But we stopped at this hotel, and flipping thru the channels with a buzz coming on nicely, we stumbled across Katt doin his thing on HBO...it was awesome, and just what was necessary for us...It may sound corny and shit, but I'll always be grateful that Katt's special was on, Kelli was going thru such a horrible time with the abuse of her pile of crap kinfolk, it just was really needed...Katt Williams is a funny motherfucker. We also started on a screenplay at that hotel, and we've talked about going back to work on it. Utah is a pretty state, when you're rollin thru...and seriously the scenery is quite awe-inspiring. The mountains and canyons are amazing rolling down I-80 after the almost 400 mile nightmare that is Wyoming. After driving from Cheyenne, Wy to Evanston, Wy your ass is sooo ready to stop and take a damn shower, and eat and drink and hit some bizzudd...Peace tonight dear friends...
Thanks to Katt and his style...

Friday, October 12, 2007

Digging Deeper

My ineptitude of this blog shit is apparent right now...The blank spot, if you right click on it and click on "open link" is a scathing report on the war in Iraq from the times or maybe the tribune hell, i don't remember...

Thinking about what I would say on a blog, (in the context of what I say), I only have reservations because I'm assuming someone else in going to read this. But that what I like about this blog...i can say what I want...I can tell you that I have an insane amount of rage toward the fuck ups that tried to kill me on that night in August...but I'm moving on...Kell and Jakob and I are heading in the right direction, and we remain on the fucking top...VICTORIOUS...

See, this is what I like about this blog...I can honestly say that I am no longer even pretending to be a capitalist. I really would like to see a systemic change in the U.S. I'm reading Randall Robinson's "The Debt: What America Owes to Blacks" my professor in my Black Studies course turned me on to it, and the range of the "History of Lies" taught in the public schools I went to.

The rape and genocide of the Natives is spoken about even less. I want to get involved in the studies of the Indigenous People as well as the people of African decent in the U.S., as well as Latin cultures. I'm very interested in learning more about Cuba...There's just such a massive world out there and the U.S. is so insulated from everyone else. I posted a map of the world to make sure you knew which world I was talking about....Bill Maher is on, if you get a chance check out the episode with Mos Def and Cornel West...very good HBO...Peace and 420...

Blogdom Appeals To Me I Can Say What I Want

I've been harvesting my crop the last week or so...I enjoyed moving to Oregon when i fist got here, the laws are hella more liberal thatn in the south, but the redneck factor is just as embarrassingly high as the south.

But, I harvested some like on the left, it's called White Widow...it's banging shit.

I do love smoking bud...I just recently put down the whiskey bottle, I've been drunk for like the past 5 years or more...

I broke my tailbone on the black label evan, I slid down the stairs on my ass, that was when I wighed about 40 lbs more than now, I've dropped a bunch...So we're smoking it up, or I am cause I gots a card...

Al Gore winning thNobel Peace Prize. What a world...

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Deputies compete in arrest contests - Los Angeles Times

Deputies compete in arrest contests - Los Angeles Times

DOES ANYONE HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THIS BESIDES ME????? Cops having contests to see how many people they can fuck with...I just saw this on Colbert's show...The article is outrageous...

This is just another example of how the police are abusing and harrassing the citizens of this nation...check out this story click on the headline

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

40 years later, Che lives on...Poke that up your asses US Government!

On this day 40 years ago, Ernesto Che Guevara was murdered in full sight of United States CIA agent Felix Rodriguez. They captured him in Bolivia, and held him in an abandoned schoolhouse. The next day, that is today, they summarily executed him.

I became interested in Che some time ago, but I have only recently begun to study his life, and him. The Motorcycle Diaries really had an impact on me when he related the poverty that he encountered on his travels, as well as the absolute ownership companies had of the people that worked for them. When seen through his eyes it really is mind-bending that capitalism will hold people captive and hostage, all the while telling the people capitalism is the way to go. (See Bush and the recent veto of children's' health care).

The government of the United States would have one believe that Che was just some ignorant, illiterate boob that was some sort of manic revolutionary. The US government would have you believe he was a terrorist.

On a side note, being raised in white America, republican at that, (are you surprised, dear reader that I survived?) I was raised with the belief that Communism was EVIL like irrationally evil. Can I get my point across? Like going to hell instantly evil. When I was a kid, (i was born in '68 I'll be 39 this month) Reagan was talking about the soviet union as the evil empire, etc., so it's not surprising to think one is going to hell for being a "godless communist."

The truth is, Guevara was a medical doctor highly educated, cultured that was very adamant (after the Cuban Revolution) that the troops in the Cuban Army learn to read, write, and develop some sort of culture about themselves. Guevara was extremely intelligent, well spoken and cultured. He also suffered horribly with asthma, something that brings him closer to me. Also, he did not start with an absolute distrust of the US gov't, it was acquired by seeing the way the US ran over Latin American countries as well as others. It wasn't until Arbenz of Guatemala was overthrown by a CIA -led force that Che decided that the US was just an imperialistic bully. Much like me. Guevara's revelation brought contempt in his mind toward the united states. He saw how the US ran and continues to run countries and whole peoples over.

I wonder what was going on in his mind before they assassinated him. Did he pray? I'm in the middle of reading "Che Guevara: A Revolutionary Life" by Jon Lee Anderson. I know how it ends, so I'm making it a study rather than a quick read. I want to meditate on the man himself, not as a fashion statement.

My beautiful son is running around acting like Spiderman talking about trick-or-treating. He's four.

I checked out "The Wretched of the Earth" by Frantz Fanon. I'm way ahead in my reading for my class so I'm going to read this for a little while. That and look for a job.

I'm still trying to figure out how to add pictures so they're not all at the top...

Monday, October 8, 2007

Update-Citizen Killing Cop

I just watched a news conference on CNN, and the cops said the muderering cop didn't have a psychological test b4 hiring. What the F*ck???? What hell is wrong with these people?

I wonder if Crosby Stills Nash and Young will do a song about it..."6 dead in Wisconsin..."

It is time for a systemic change in the United States...

Wisconsin town in shock after off-duty deputy kills 6 - CNN.com

Wisconsin town in shock after off-duty deputy kills 6 - CNN.com

Check out this link. Forget about the smile. This bastard was a murderous cop. That's it.

Early Sunday morning a cop invaded a party and murdered several kids one of which was only 14. The S.O.B. went to school with them.
My question is this: Why are 20 year old made sheriffs' deputies? A 20 year old kid has no idea about life as a whole, has barely had any life experiences...Needless to say this cop was horrifically unstable. His instability should have been caught long before he was made a deputy and weapons put into his hand.

Years ago, the deputies in Greene county, Arkansas only made $6.50/hr. Jack-booted thugs that think they're John Wayne. Same with the judges who think they're demi-gods.

This is why I'm teaching my son not to trust the police. He is being taught not to talk to the police unless his momma or daddy are present, and he is being taught not to trust the system as a whole. My distrust, as well as my wife and subsequently our son is a direct result of the abuse, intimidation, bigotry and racism that we have seen and encountered with the police, D.A.'s and judges in this country. This system has no-one to blame but itself.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Ned Flanders, Ted Haggard and Catfish

So I'm sitting on the couch with Kell and Jakob w/our dogs watching the Simpsons and Ned Flanders comes on the screen and I got to thinking of a news story I saw about Christians needing a makover cause most people think Christians in America are too judgmental. The years I spent in the Protestant churches in the south, well suffice it to say I live in Oregon.

I'm glad God isn't like most of the natural fathers I know, myself included. I would suck at being god.

I wonder when the Church in America is going to hire a P.R. firm? I'll be willing to bet Jesus wants them to hurry up and get the ball rolling on that:) I can see him up there shaking his head when the Ted Haggards of the world are preaching against their own actions and sexuality oops! Then you get busted!

DISCLAIMER-I AM NOT RELIGIOUS! Religion kills, I am a believer-big difference.

But Jesus is a lot cooler than people give him credit for. In the south-hang on- Kelli just said it. "God is not the God that is represented in the South" She's absolutly right. The churches for the most part-to give some background-I preached in some of the most hardcore Pentecostal churches in the South. In Arkansas. Churches that taught no pants for women, no cutting hair, no makeup, no facial hair on men,(women it was ok), no short sleeves, no t.v. radio if it was christian radio, but only if they played southern gospel music (which is just country-style gospel music) 'cause "christian rock" was definetly out. The only vice one could have while in Pentecost was FOOOOOOD!!!! And Lots of it! Man, I remeber when Brother Gray would call a fast, you could sense the tension in the church, it was palpable. Then when it was over, usually in a day or so, cause the fat asses would be faint with hunger...there would be vats of ro-tel cheese dip, fried chicken, pork steaks, (we were too damn poor to afford pork CHOPS), greens beans and cornbread cakes, ice cream, soda, tons more food, green beans w/bacon black eyed peas fried catfish & hushpuppies...actually it all sounds pretty f*cking good right now, it's harvest time in Oregon these days and I, my friends, have a green card...no, I haven't immigrated (don't get me started on what I think of the terrible way Latinos are being treated in the U.S. now, f*ck the Republicans and these sorry rednecks).

Yeah those were the good 'ole days, listen to the preacher talk about how everybody goin to hell but us. But don't tell that to the Baptists cause they think THEY'RE the only goin to heaven...lots o fun.

Again, did I mention I live in Oregon?



Startup Sunday, 10.7.07

So I just finished reading one of my Professors' blogs, Ridwan Laher. He is my Intro to Black Studies Prof @ portland state u. (I aint trying to copy your template, Ridwan I dig the star, albeit it should be RED. Why is a "white" dude taking Black Studies? A couple of words: WHITE AMERICA. White america has worked so hard to sweep its abysmal history under the rug that growing up in a white upper middle class suburb of Chicago, the question of race and the real history of our country was almost non-existent. White students, white teachers, white cops white judges, white politicians...it seemed like Chicago was a world and a million miles away from our pathetic enclave and most of the white folks lived in stark (although largely unspoken-that would be racist! *GASP*) terror of Black people trying to escape the horror and poverty of the inner city. It wasn't until I got older, that is in my 20's that I realized how f*cking-
hang on that damn Lars Larson commercial came on again on the tv-this clown is trying to tell me the US is a nation of laws, that we ought to follow the laws, blah f-ing blah. What people like Lars Larson forget is this country was not founded on law, but on the rape of the natives, and BREAKING BRITISH LAW. The British considered the colonists to be terrorists. For Gods' sake, they threw out the f*cking tea into the harbor!
This country was founded on lawbreakers and lawbreaking. DON'T EVER FORGET IT!
This country and the politicians that run it don't follow the laws, look at Larry Craig from Idaho...gonna resign his position and tell motherf*ckers sh*t that don't make no sense. Gonna tell ppl that he didn't know he was pleading guilty to soliciting sex in a male bathroom. Gonna tell ppl that he didn't have legal counsel and didn't know what he was doing...he has been in congress for 20 years or more, cramming laws down the citizens of this nation, and he is going to lie his a** off and tell us he doesn't know the law. And then renig on his promise to get the hell out of Congress.
Hell, I'm not a Senator but I know the law well enough to know when I am pleading guilty or innocent to a crime, and I sure as hell know enough to know to get a lawyer when dealing with this horrible corrupt self-serving out of control "legal" system...
Okay...so I was in my 20's when I realized how damn racist my father and mother as well as my grandparents, etc are/were. My grandfather driving me through parts of Chi-town and saying stupid sh*t like "this neighborhood was really nice until the "jigs" showed up." When a child is 5 or 6 years old they don't have a clue what "jig" is or what mindless hate is. That sh*t is learned.

Thinking of that I'd like to take all of these white soccer moms with their ridiculous soccer balls on their mini vans and make like lemmings off a cliff. Same with the SUV drivers trying to navigate their behemoths thru Starbucks drive thru so they can get a caramel macchiato "venti" of course, with its 750 calories or so "food porn" I heard someone refer to it...along with a blueberry ooze cake...then listen to them bitch about how their trucks and their asses can't fit thru the drive thru (I've got to get a picture of that). What has this country come to? A bunch of whining white racists worried sick that "the Mexicans" are going to take over or worse yet, "the Blacks" may buy a house in their neigborhood.

My wife and I moved to Portland from the south, in particular North Carolina, in the blue ridge range of the great smoky mountains. Don't let the name fool ya, the bud there sucked. Much better here. My Lady was born and raised in a pissant town named Forrest City in Arkansas.

Where did the name come from? The founding fathers, white racist pigs that they were, and still are, (see pat flanagin and hank and samuel flanagin-more on those clowns in the future, there is plenty to say about those pigs...)couldn't seem to come up with anything better so they named it after Confederate "war hero" and founder of the ku klux klan, Nathan Bedford Forrest. Disgusting, huh? Yep that's the south, and I spent 15 years in it. While in Arkansas, from 11/87 until 8/2000, I saw cross burnings on my neighbors lawn in Pocahontas, met a guy who owned land in melbourne, ar, that he proudly displayed a plaque on an oak tree signifying it was a tree used for lynching blacks, saw police beat black people mercilessly, saw poverty, oppression of blacks, and an utter unwillingness for the politicians to do anything. When I was walking to work one morning in 1989 I rounded the corner and saw several police cars, cops, news, neighbors, etc standing around a smoldering cross that had been pushed over into the grass. The police response? "Awww its just some rednecks out fooling around" The outrage I felt and feel still over some damn white redneck cop dismissing such hate as a "redneck joke" fuels my contempt for the white system we have in this country.
And ppl wonder why the sh*t is going on in Jena Louisiana today. A steadfast refusal to acknowledge that disgusting past whites are trying to deny. There is all kinds of stupidity in the south, but none so blatant as, well, all of it. Then you have Robert Byrd, a known racist and ex member of the Klan saying stupid sh*t like "I know white ni*gers too, there's such a thing as white ni*gers. " All while he's shaking all over the tv screen. Why this buffoon has a job in the senate after 250 years is beyond me. People like him need to go far far away. His ridiculous comments are simply contrived by southerners to try to mask their true feeling toward blacks.
I don't give a damn about the "new" south. There is no such thing. THERE IS NO SUCH THING. Hate and racism are still alive and well in the south and it will never stop as long as ppl keep electing piles of crap like robert byrd or pat flanagin. (fortunately that SOB was kicked out of office due to term limits.) This is an elected pig 11 terms to the AR state Reps who sat behind his huge desk and proclaimed an end to welfare and poor black women need to stop having kids and make something of themselves.
Him and Clinton and others called it "welfare reform" Then this bastard goes back to his giant house on a hill with massive white pillars out front (I'm not making this up) his life of privilege, his psychotic two sons and his beautiful daughter. And the wife he's cheating on. Oh did I mention his first child he had that he threw away under the guise of adoption? It would have f-ed up his political career...and this jewel of a person judges me.
A bible in one hand and a pistol in the other. (Thanks Ridwan for that visual on the first day of class!) He would kill me if he thought he could get away with it. I have news for all-I do not cowtow to anyone and I stand (and in between my mother beating my head against the wall she taught me to stand for what I believe in).

When I figure out my digi camera and all about this blog stuff I'm going to post pix etc.

I really dig my Intro to Black Studies Class, I'm going to continue on in that, and perhaps law school. I'm 39 on 10/21, but my life is just beginning. I'm so thankful for my Lady and my son, as well as my other children. More about that and the ridiculousness of the discriminating Child Support scam in the US. God help these bastards when I get my degrees...Your time is coming.

Peace to all who need it, and to those that have tried to murder me in the past and destroy my life and my families'-the clock is ticking...
Tuesday is the 40 anniversary of the United States gov't murdering Ernest "Che" Guevara. Che Vive!